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08:44 pm
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Get it.
I've been spending my days and thoughts planning for next summer.
I've got corps on the brain and my mello is my fave:)
Here's to this weekend!!!!!=D
Current Mood:  ecstatic
Current Music: Blue Devils 2004
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10:11 pm
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I don't want to feel your pain.
If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle
A mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same(no)
We're not the same(no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good(hey)
It's good(hey)
It's good
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same(no)
We're not the same(no)
Oh we're not the same
Yeah we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good(hey)
It's good(hey)
It's good
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Current Mood:  confused
Current Music: Paramore:Ignorance
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07:31 pm
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Chains be broken.
*I love being a mello! I've never been so attached to a section or so close. Go Bundy!
*I love javelina marching band as annoying as it's getting.
*I love BAF. That's a given.
*I will always love you Abel, that is for sure.
*And I care about you, alot.
I hate music history, crying and ed classes. Bleh.
Back to the drawing board, and God You have the pencil.
love.love.love.
Current Music: Hillsong United
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07:28 pm
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Dripping over with alchamey.
Ooooohhhhh livejournal!!!! I miiiisss youuu!!!!
So, I've ended a chapter in my life. As much as I really really reeeeeaaalllyyy didn't want to give up. There's only so much I can give to a person, to not have any of it returned. He's got a spot in my heart, and that's what I'm walking away with. Still with love to give.
I've also realized how many great people I have in my life. I'd like to find some reason to drive me, and I have. They're it.
I don't need anything more, and nothing less.
I loooove my guys, they're the best. And I'd kill for them, just as much as they would for me:)
I also have found a new love for my seesters, I wanted to throw it away. But some of them have stepped it up. And I am grateful.
And you. I love the way you think, and I love the way you take care of me.
It's like you've got the same mind as me. And I've been dying to connect with someone like that for forever.
Thank you for your company and you're heart.
And yesss I am soooo sidetracked:)
Off to dinner with ernie, I can't wait to catch up with him:)
My God is the God who provides.
love.love.love.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Yeah Yeah Yeahs: Heads will Roll
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05:43 pm
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You had my heart, at least for the most part.
Those shorts, and that jacket give me hope.
Hope that you and I still posess, and a love, that's not really broken:)
I've got amazing friends, two badass sections, an awesome show, and a love you can't defeat!
I'm marching mellophone. Therefore, I am a badass. Deal with it;)
"We fell apart, let's make a new start..."
Love. love.love.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: AX7: Little Piece of Heaven
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04:10 pm
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I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did.
Well, I missed writing an entry on it, buuuuutttt.....
yesterday was 6 months! yay baby!
You mean the world to me, and I am sooo glad and grateful that God put you in my life!
I love you more than you know corazon, you're my favorite:)
you make me feel.....amazing to say the least.
"Sometimes love comes around, and knocks you down..."
love.love.love!
Current Mood:  loved
Current Music: Keri Hilson: Knocks You Down
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03:23 pm
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You rocked my world, you know you did;)
I think that my favorite thing, is having a frustrating day and falling asleep and waking up the next morning to his beautiful face=D
Yeah, I'm in love<333
*Michael James is coming this weekend!
*And Danielle and Billy
*KSO all this weekend for the first time...
*Which in turn means no work after today for THREE DAYS!
*I've come to realize that I would kill for those people.
*Especially Chuerta and Brenda, they're like my kids<3
*I'd kill for all of them, except for maybe Wilmer and Jaime, they can handle their own lol
*I'm going to miss them soo much when I quit
*I'm officially 17 pounds lighter, 123.2 to be exact!=D
*I'm excited for marching band
*Led Zeppelin and Coffee in the morning is great!
*I freaking loooove my new phone! it's great:)
*I'm super super sad that Jenn's leaving in a couple of days:(
*It's like I'll be missing a part of me.
*But she's on to bigger and better things!
*I'm loving being in charge of hometeam
*I love those guys they are amazing and loving people:)
*DCI in a couple of weekends!
*Which equals quality time with my baby!
*He's great! I can't see myself with out him.
*And I am completley and absolutley in love with him:)
*God has His plans, and whatever we just went through was meant to be!
*RIP Michael Jackson
Pay Day!!! Woo!
love.love.love
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Michael Jackson: Rock my World
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02:27 pm
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I'm time and you're so on the money.
I'm better.
I love Mandy, she's a part of me.
Katrina has been supportive.
I'm so glad Jenn is back, I needed her so bad.
Everyone at work keeps me laughing.
he keeps me confident.
Isaac makes algebra barable.
Alyssa keeps me loved.
he keeps me missing him.
and He keeps me breathing.
love. love. love.
Current Mood:  okay
Current Music: Hilary Duff: Reach Out
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04:04 pm
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And the pain, is not healing.
Hey Alyssa!
Were going to get through this! If it kills me or not!
I love you, very much so! And thank you for taking care of me this past weeks!
Cheer up grumpy gills! We've got someone who loves us!
Love, Ivry Jean!
"I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, is there healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on,
I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK..."
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Lifehouse: Broken
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01:19 pm
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And all to You God, for all You are to me!!!!
Alright Miss Ivry Jean, count your blessings....again!
*My God has still filled me with love.
*I have a job!
*New friends at work who keep me laughing
*My job equals money annddd.....lots of funn things to do with it!:)
*My parents are doing better!
*I still have Georgie
*My awesome cousin Michael, whom I miss!
*My friends are coming back tomorrow!
*Which means... time with Mandy, Jenn, Little Rollie and my seesters!!=D
*BAF! and College Hometeam!<333
*Rudy, Charlotte and Cheri being loving towards me.
*Gaining some friends who share the same thing I do!
*Seeing my family in a couple weekends
*Marching Band in August! Yessss!!!!
*Catching up with my dearly missed twin, I love you Katrina!
*Seeing the guys!
*Still keeping my best guy friend, and his interest in me;)
*Being able to STILL love him, both ways<3
*Time with Alyssa!<3
*Hanging out with my big seester Laura!
*Having great friends who cheer me up!
*Picking on Jerry hah!
*Sleepovers with Niki
*Texting Danielle
*College Algebra....yay!=P
*Buying a U2 shirt at walmart for 10 bucks! Victory is mine!
*Losing even more weight!
*I don't know how much, but I look pretty skinny!
*DCI with Abel, Billy and Danielle!
*Hanging out with Mar<3
*Being blessed no matter what!
*Having a love that will never let me go
*Having a GOD that will never let me go<3
I'll love You forever, Lord!
Current Mood: amazingly blessed!
Current Music: Hillsong United: There is Nothing Like
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12:39 pm
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I feel alive, but it hurts for a change.
My God has bigger and better plans for me.
No matter how much I miss you.
I wish you could have the love I do, and I wish you would let me show you.
Cause I can help you, but I can lead you to the One who will heal you.
And that's what you need.
But now I love you the way He loves us.
And that's good enough for me=D
"I don't have time to maintain these regrets
when I think about the way...
He loves us!"
Current Mood: blessed
Current Music: The Afters: Never Going Back to OK
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09:29 pm
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You are still God.
"This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've recieved I will sow.."
Alright Lord, let's show them what Your love can do!
Show them that no matter what I go through, It brings me back to You,
and You heal me and You bring me something bigger and better, always.
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Hillsong United: Desert Song
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12:29 pm
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The truth is hiding in your eyes.
"The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well I will figure this one out
On my own
I'm screaming I love you so..."
Current Mood:  numb
Current Music: Paramore: Decode
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09:38 pm
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Baby, don't cry.
"The sea it swells like a sore head and the night it is aching
Two lovers lie with no sheets on their bed
And the day it is breaking
On rainy days we'd go swimming out
On rainy days swimming in the sound
On rainy days we'd go swimming out
You're in my mind all of the time
I know that's not enough
If the sky can crack there must be someway back
For love and only love
Electrical Storm
Electrical Storm
Baby don't cry
Car alarm won't let you back to sleep
You're kept awake dreaming someone elses dream
Coffee is cold but it'll get you through
Compromise that's nothing new to you.
Let's see colours that have never been seen
Let's go places no one else has been
You're in my mind all of the time
I know that's not enough
Well if the sky can crack there must be someway back
To love and only love
Electrical storm
Baby don't cry
It's hot as hell, honey in this room
Sure hope the weather will break soon
The air is heavy, heavy as a truck
We need the rain to wash away our bad luck
Well if the sky can crack there must be some way back
To love and only love
Electrical Storm
Baby don't cry"
My baby, please don't cry.
Current Mood: electrical storm.
Current Music: U2: Electrical Storm
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11:33 pm
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And you give yourself away.
Wooo! Four months with my favorite.
It's getting hard, but I know we'll be okay.
We will, love of mine:)
I miss you when you're not around,
and you're arms are my comfort.
my friend first and foremost, and my infatuation second.
you have my support, love, friendship and dedication, always.
And most of all you have my heart, and a permanent spot in it.
I know, I'm not the best person to be around, or be dating for that fact.
And I know I get frustrated, and I know I bitch alot.
I feel horrible for all of it.
But know that no matter, I love you, and you're the one I want.
I am sooo grateful for you in my life, and the peace of knowing that you will always be in there, friend or boyfriend.
And you know, you have my word.<3
Current Mood: content
Current Music: U2: With or Without You
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01:49 pm
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I want you so much, somehow, I can't resist you.
Soooo....for the first time in I don't know how long, I'm not a section leader, and it hurts.
But God has bigger and better things for me.
Congrats to Aleeesa, Britty, Alexis, and my little Alyssa! My new seeesters!
And to my older sisters, I love you all, you're the best encouragment a girl could ask for!
Annnd yesterday was 3 months with Abel<33
He's my best friend, and I can't ask for anything more right now.
He's got a permanent spot in my heart, always.
"And if the world falls down today,
you still have me to hold you up
and I will never let you down."
Finally some us time today.
And I looove BAF! God, You're love is carrying me through!<3
Proficiency time=Ownage!
Current Mood: Abel!!!♥
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08:20 am
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Gonna make you burn, gonna make you sting.
Marching Band, here we go again!
Led Zepplin=Badass!
Proficiency=Laaaammmmeee!!!
and
Atonal music......CAN SUCK IT!!!!=p
Three months with Abel, Section leader auditions, annnnnd initiation on saturday.....
BRING IT!!!!!=D
Current Mood:  freaking fantabulous!
Current Music: Led Zepplin: Rock and Roll
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06:42 pm
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Oh my soul!
I've forgotten what it feels like, and what I should feel like. I want to scream to the world, that there's someone who loves them, and we're never ever, from here to eternity, will never be alone! I have a joy that no one can take from me, and a joy that comes through Him! I caught my fire, and I don't know how I manage to loose it all the time, but I'm done with that. He's my love, my everything, my joy, my peace, my burden carrier, and my father above all. He's lover of my soul, and I want to show the world His love, and that they can have it too!
Doesn't anyone see? The billions of stars in the sky, the never failing dawn, the birth of child, the intricate human mind, the ability to feel...that it just didn't happen, that is no man made thing. There is a God, and He will never ever compare, to anyone.
I feel guitly somedays, that I'm so blessed, I have so much...and some people don't even have a third of what I do. I want to give it all away so that some people can have something. I want everyone to be loved, and be in good company. I want to start using all that I have and give it back to people who are in so much more need than I am.
And now, what time I do have, goes to Him, all my extra money, my time, my energy and my love...goes out to Him, and to the people who need Him. I'm on a set path, and He's chosen me, and I've known that since I can remember, I was made to love people. Get along with everyone, and the people I don't get along with, surely they see the way I live, and they've seen what He's done for me. And that's all I can want from the rest of my life, is to give, and give all of me. Cause all I have wasn't even mine to begin with, now wasn't it:)
I just hope, that one person is affected by this.
Cause now you can see what I'm truly about.
I was lost and now I'm found.
I'm a special girl, who is the daughter of a King!<3
"God is love, and love won't leave you..."
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Jeff Deyo: Bless the Lord
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06:33 pm
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come closer.
2 months!
I am such a lucky bug to have him!♥
Current Mood: smitten
Current Music: Twilight
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09:51 pm
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Tearing down windows and doors, I could not find eyes like yours.
So I guess I'm gonna have to start pouring my life into my other lj.
Again, this thing is going to get me into trouble again!
Stupid people.
I guess for a general update.
*I'm home for the first time in three months.
*I've already had one panic attack.
*I've lost seven pounds by running two miles everday.
*And if I do say myself, I look pretty good:)
*I get to SLEEP tomorrow!!! Finally.
*I've started picking up a bad habit, but damn do I sleep freaking well after lol
*I'm doing great in my lessons! Even Nancy said I could be first chair in ws.
*I looooove my little sister, Alyssa, whom I'm sharing with Jenn.
*Honestly, she has the best big's ever:) lol
* I still have the best boyfriend ever<3333
*Abel and I will have two months in like a week and a half!:)
*He's coming to visit this week:)
*And I absolutley adore him, he frustrates me, but my gosh, I feel amazing when I'm with him:)
*My family is doing great!
*I got to see Aaron!!! Yay!!!
*God's blessed me soo much, and I'm going to have a God Revolution soon.
* I feel so distant.
* I want my belly button pierced! And shopping!
*Little Rollie is now a brother of PMA! Yay little rolls!!! lol
*I've become quite fond of Mar, she's awesome, I love her!
*I've got some amazing sisters who take care of me when I'm drunk.
*And an awesome big! I love her!
I'm filled with alot of love, can you tell??? lol
And that's about it:) I miss my amor!!!!
love.love.love.
"le pido al cielo solo un deseo
que en tus ojos yo pueda vivir
he recorrido ya el mundo entero
y una cosa te vengo a decir
viaje de Bahrein hasta Beirut
fui desde el Norte hasta el polo sur
y no encontre ojos asi
como los que tienes tu..."
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Shakira: Ojos Asi
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